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Long Winter Years by Deteriora, literature

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Long Winter Years

I've been sitting in the dark These long winter years Staring into shadows that bless and beckon But leave me feeling Empty As remnants often do I pull my toes across The gloss wood floor Trying to imagine Days that should have been But fail me like Aging fingers and Worn out bones Its not so long ago That my mind spun in circles Twirling like the little girl Who had not yet faced her climb Dancing up and down Tireless streets Without fear of running Out of road Do shadows age? Whispering immortal promises Into delicate cupped hands Tracing lines around Upward looking eyes And beseeching fate To hold the memory of a smile Forever in its

inamorata by Deteriora, literature

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inamorata

i smiled the way tiny birds do when they learn to sing i never thought that worlds could open when mouths closed and meet halfway with a slight part and push and lock like that which is worn around this fragile clock that keeps your time now steady ticking to each carefully phrased word my hand on yours telling time in ways that our fingers and hearts count days by and our minds dream by in visions of secret hopes and feral knowlage of body to body spirit to spirit whole to whole you to i the way fragile flowers blossom when they finally feel the sun i smiled

binary amative by Deteriora, literature

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binary amative

i opened wrists not looking for freckles or any other signs of birth or death and reached inward with a tiny pull toward that beating thing that quickened pace as our eyes touched and i recalled a distant notion of what happiness was of what happiness is and smiled with a grace unbeknown to a broken child that i had become softly humming i slid through motions clasping your hands and amatory simply we move in one another's mutual gravitation and i am pulled wrist up toward your star

disremembered by Deteriora, literature

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disremembered

i craved knowing you in a discontent, backwards motion where i forgot the feeling in my toes and your smile made me sick i wish i was still happy licking your eyelids and getting lost behind the bed like that one night where you said you loved me and made my heart feel like Fred Astaire when he danced to "You're All the World to Me" i dont remember any more what it felt like to press against your lips but your flavor lingers on my skin and my cerebellum traces every step like it was a P.I. hot on a trail i know not, any longer how to dream in color without your head cradled next to mine or your fingerprint on my soul

Nine Circles by Deteriora, literature

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Nine Circles

i sat staring at the backs of eyelids while you- exploring salty shores and sand dunes left me contemplating this pressure in my chest trying to break through my walnut skull that all hearts break equally and i holding fragments of your smile could only laugh and shake my head remembering what it was like to learn your name not using words and how much i love the freckle above your lip and the way you said "you were happy"

Benedictional Recourse by Deteriora, literature

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Benedictional Recourse

tribunal prayers filter into enveloped boxes waiting to be answered as white gloved hands meet in unison silence i pray that Atlas would turn his head lay down his burden and extend me his hand but this prayer will go unanswered light filters into the confessional as doors in the cathedral rattle on their hinges the Virgin Mary bleeds her tears and yet still- no miracle here a thousand lifetimes have passed before my eyes and though the ground beneath my feet feels the same- time has made its stamp upon me making each step more unbearable than the last but if God could walk this land and still bear his cross then why is

Bowed Out by Deteriora, literature

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Bowed Out

she stopped at act three and retired to the dim behind the curtain away from the glares and stares of hungry eyes and empty heads she gathered her life in her petticoat pocket and forgot what it was like to live by a script to memorize lines to break her fall and was broken as she left her world in the spotlight she cried out as one by one they replaced her with ease and forgot what it meant for her to adorne the stage to feel her presence to love her with the grace she commanded she boarded the train with blurry vision and hoped that it would take her back so that perhaps she could enter stage right as though s

Fingerprints by Deteriora, literature

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Fingerprints

i closed my eyes and reopened them hoping that i could dream in waking states and tiptoe down your vertebrae avoiding the ones that creak so as not to stir you from thoughts of brave men in battle that cling to their hilts and little ones that cling to soiled aprons handmaidens take to washing as i wander amongst your sinew and flesh clinging to my dusty volume of broken prose and forgotten fairy tales and a tired man pauses to wipe the blood from his blade and the sweat from his brow clinging to a home that will cheer his victory if he carries on mothers take to tending fields running dry and cattle past their pul

Painterly by Deteriora, literature

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Painterly

i am lucid this time im spent exploring pavement till my knuckles are white and ache from grasping run-on sentences and kissing ceilings as we pass through yellow lights somewhere you are left clutching our loneliness as if it were the last drop of wine and poking toes into the space between cushions, a dangerous endevor to gain warmth and comfort as i paint the walls a different color and wish that i were home i stopped analyzing the many shades between two pigments when i saw that startling shock of blue and dropped off beneath the arches of my feet, finding a place thats not so different than myself wondering- what was

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Long Winter Years by Deteriora, literature

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Long Winter Years

inamorata by Deteriora, literature

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inamorata

binary amative by Deteriora, literature

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binary amative

disremembered by Deteriora, literature

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disremembered

Nine Circles by Deteriora, literature

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Nine Circles

Benedictional Recourse by Deteriora, literature

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Benedictional Recourse

Bowed Out by Deteriora, literature

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Bowed Out

Fingerprints by Deteriora, literature

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Fingerprints

Painterly by Deteriora, literature

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Painterly

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kneecaps by Deteriora, literature

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kneecaps

i was innocent at age four- before wide eyed waking brain surgery and stitches in my heart to keep it ticking. sideways closures to end the bleeding from the clumsy departures out of that inward place. my very naked fingers trace highways too widely explored by careless passengers vacationing through, and rake through hair that has fed itself on saturday nights and dried its dampness with light from the undersides of your hands. my only hope is that the tender spots dont fade from fleshy surfaces, giving way to rock formations that scrape and dig. things my nimble extensions yearn to form into living masses and physical exer

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 18 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Raleigh, NC
deviantWEAR sizing preference: small
Favourite genre of music: all forms of rock, ebm, classical
Personal Quote: Two are never so far that they cant hear the winds of fate.

Favourite Visual Artist

dali

Favourite Movies

donnie darko, phantasm, alice in wonderland, edward sissorhands, boondock saints

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

deftones, tool, blank theory, cradle of filth, nin

Favourite Writers

edgar allan poe, tennyson, e.e. cummings, mercedes lackey, inmyroom

Favourite Games

everquest 2, zelda, baten kaitos, Vanguard, rock band

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox 360, pc, ds

Tools of the Trade

my muse ;)

Other Interests

waiting waking up to a beautiful sleeping smile

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Deteriora

Sep 24, 2009

Writing: Blocks and Lack of time

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So I have been filling orders and working on projects over at www.zenandcoffee.deviantart.com and for the past few month have experienced the worst writer's block :( Work has been super buys with deadlines, and between that and sewing, I just havent had the time to sort through it. I promise, in a few more weeks, a conscious effort will be made toward breaking through that wrter's block and producing some more poetry. If you are still looking for those 3 hats, they are now in the Zen And Coffee folder in my gallery, as I want this account to feature only my writing, and keep both things separate. (But gah, for the life of me, I cannot get t

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Deteriora

Aug 20, 2009

New Account: ZenAndCoffee ! Please add and fave!

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So I finally settled on a new account that will house my art and sewing work. The new account is: http://zenandcoffee.deviantart.com/ Please add this one as well if you are a friend or watcher on this account, or you will miss out on all my new art additions (that includes items for sale and commission!) I am also (and have been for a while) on Twitter as ZenAndCoffee (https://www.deviantart.com/zenandcoffee) where you can get small day to day updates. Feel free to add me there if you like as well. This account will continue to feature my writing, and the new account will feature my art. I prefer to keep these two separate, as I dont want one to bury the other. I will keep the ar

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Deteriora

May 25, 2009

Animazement 2009 and a new Acct!

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Ahhh! Long time since I updated! Im currently in progress of making a cosplay acct on here, as I prefer to keep my writing all in one place for the sake of those looking through it. As soon as I get it up, Ill post a link in this journal. Unfortunately, we forgot our camera for Animazement 2009, so all pictures that I will be posting will be noted as to who took them, but the costumes I created 100% on my own (and it was a pain sometimes, as this was my first go at cosplay, and I attempted to make 2 cosplays in about 1.5 weeks :P) Im already sad that the con is over, and I cant wait to see all the awesome people I met again next year (as wel

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Chrysshart

Nov 15, 2009

pride and prejudice and zombies? this sounds very interesting indeed!

PaxinaBox

Sep 19, 2009

Hey, thanks for adding me! Sorry that it took so long to thank you.

Deteriora

Sep 24, 2009

Not a problem! Thank you, as well

TheCrimsonRogue

Aug 23, 2009

It's ok that you haven't been writing much. I haven't been too busy with art either.

And thanks but the only probalem is the store i'm at is being shut down, and I'm not likely to go to a different one.

I did score a job as a PA, it may not pay too well and it's freelance but it's awesome.

Anywho i hope i can get to see more of your work soon and I'll be posting again hopefully.

WhisperedSins

Aug 10, 2009

hey wren, it's Deckan.

Reine-Haru

Aug 4, 2009

Thanks for the

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Miakaylia

Jun 29, 2009

Thanks for the